Darn!!

Crap!! My previously-nice-flower-blog template is gone!! Due to some technical problem, some lousy user at photobucket didn't update his account. So, by background has to be changed to polka dots. Blech...

Due to facebook-ing, my blog has been neglected for quite some time now. Realised that I am not the only one.. Hehe..

Well, gonna start blogging again (funny how i say that most of the time) but this time it is for REAL.. Will be bringing a cam wherever i go so guys, be ready in case of your candid shots being posted on the net!!!

New Moon

Gosh!!

Can't wait for this movie to be released...

Vibrio, oh Vibrio

Is it coincidence? Is it betrayal?

Vibrio, oh Vibrio
Why hath thou betrayest me?
I hath treated thee like a best friend;
culturing thee, giving the life, fresh nutrients from the freshest lea,
like ade in the hottest summer
.......................


Okay
I give up. The POINT is stupid Vibrios. I've treated you so well, culturing you and giving you life and this is what I get from you?

Ever since I've become involved with you, I get "lau sai" four times. Is this how you repay me, huh Vibrios?

I am Soooooooo gonna get a hand sanitizer.

MUST. REALLY. GET. ONE.



08.08.09

S-H-I-T

SHIT!! My handphone fell into the water.. Crap!!

Now it keeps dialing 6666666666666 by its own..

Gonna miss u guys.. Sob.. sob..

I cant believe that i m already in the third year...

11 more months to go and we'll all go our own separate ways.. I was reminiscing the past when I was cycling with u guys yesterday.. It had always been a fun time to spend with u all.. Couldn't believe how time had flown since the first time I met the nine of you:-

Li Mei, Kim Hock, Judith, Janet, Lai Kuan, Patrick, Fui Lin, Connie and Jia Hui...

Still remember the first time I went out with Li Mei, Kim Hock, Lai Kuan and Jia Hui to Matang.. The girls and I were in the same car.. During that time I didn't even who was who and what their names were. Still remember though, that Jia Hui insisted on driving that day.. Hehe..
In Matang, all of us went to our separate ways.. Wand Suan, Fui Lin, Xiu Qi and I were on our own to the waterfall while the rest went off on their own to the hill.

Poor Kim Hock suffered from gastric pain and had to stay in the car. Back then, I didn't know what his name was--- Therefore I just called him the gastric guy.

Another guy also went to that trip- Yen Shin.. I didn't know his name as well so during that time I called him the "weird guy" as he was more of an introvert, heading off to the mountain ALONE. (Btw, I still call him weird guy behind his back..HAHA!!)

I did not even talk to the girls back then. Now, it was all laughter and jokes.. Different, huh..

I'm gonna seriuosly miss all of u..

Xiu Qi has been defeated

Oh my gosh.. Just realised something.. I've won Xiu Qi. She has always been known as the "ta li shi" but based on the previous post on lab work and destroying things, I guess I had won.. Sorry ya, Xiu Qi... Try harder next time.. Hehe..

crazy things to do in a university

Crazy things that I had done so far in my final year:-

1. Went fishing at 11 p.m.

2. Went cycling at the old campus with a group of ten


our catch of the night - 2 fishes actually

lab work is fun.. when i get to burn n destroy things

Lab work is kinda fun actually... well.. especially when i get to burn and destroy things.. Let me give u a recap of what had happened during my lab work so far..

There are two Masters students in my lab. They don't talk much, so it's kinda boring for a cheerful and friendly person like me. So these are the things that i did to entertain myself.....

1st day in the lab.... I was asked to wash all the Bijou bottles that i needed using the baby bottle brush. Guess what I did? I accidentally broke the brush, snapping it into two. Ooopsss... First thing destroyed..

I've lost track I had spent in the lab so I'll give u the basic account of what had been destroyed so far:-
2 gloves (i accidentally burn my gloves while lighting the lighter--- hehe)
2 inoculating loops (destroyed the first while i was doing streaking.. Hence I asked for a replacement. Mana tahu, 5 minutes later, I broke the other one...)

And the most recent account...

I had to prepare the TCBS agar. I had been keeping an eye on it so as not to let to boil out from the bottle. After 20 minutes of watching, I got bored and decided to do something else which makes my time more worthwhile. So I refilled the recycled pipette tips so as to be autoclaved.
Again, mana tahu... I haven't even left for 2 minutes and the agar solution boiled out from the bottle!! MY AGAR WAS BURNT BADLY!!

I panicked at first, but after that I chuckled to myself as I poured the agar onto petri dishes. I dunno what's funny but the fact that the 2 Masters students did not say anything and pretended that nothing had happened (but they just opened the door widely -- the whole lab smells of burnt agar) made it funny.

Boy.. how i love my lab work.. Makes my life more interesting.. Haha..

Getting old..

i think i am getting OLD.. I seem to have forgotten most of my passwords set for most accounts. Firstly, i forgot my Facebook password, next my Google gmail password and now.. just 5 minutes ago, i forgot what my password for Blogspot is..

CRAP!!

thanks for the comment sis...

But honestly sometimes i also dunno why i live.. the purpose of life in this world... it's very confusing isn;'t it? all of us live just to die...

industrial training

All this while I've been thinking..
Should i regret that i've rejected the National Cancer Research Institute's (cariff) offer? Thoughts have been playing and running wildly in my head.
After two weeks doing my industrial training in Miri GH, I have finally been able to adapt myself-- well, a little...

Miri GH has given me the opportunities to learn a lot of new things-- things i have not seen or heard before. But sometimes, it just keeps me wondering why i should learn all these things. They are just not related to the course that i am studying now. All the while in the hospital, I've been envious of the doctors working there. They are doing the job that I've always aimed for, the chance to cure people, the chance to be in the spotlight where you can be busy and running about, shouting into your caller saying that you are on your way to the OT. That kind of life is what I've always dreamt for.

But today, after watching a doctor doing bone marrow extraction on 2 patietns i change my mind.
No, it's not that i couldn't bear watching needles aand syringes. I've been into OT watching doctors performing ceasarean and brain surgery. But it's the patients' sufferings that brought a halt to my will-never-be-able-to-achieve-dream.

Both patients are about 13 or 14 years of age. It was really depressing, though watching them having their bone marrow extracted from them. It was painful---excruciatingly painful, from their shouts of agony and pain. That was unbearable.

It makes you think how fragile we human are. And makes me realise too, how important our health is. Working in a hospital, where a kid as small as 4 suffering from major illness leaves me depressed everytime i reach home.

Therefore, I am thankful for not achieving that dream...

finally i m home.. Feels so nice to be home..

four things i m addicted to in my life....

1. music

2. English novels... my bookshelf is FULL of them

3. dogs.. another addition here;- Wa Wa

*Wa Wa*

*a playful puppy*

*a puppy with no tail.. funny.. i'm still wondering what breed it is*

*playing hide and seek.. it walks like a panda too*



4. chocolates

to the penangites..

Hi fellow penang friends!!

I'm currently writing a melodramatic story place set in Penang back in the 1920s.. Dedicating this piece of story to all my penangite friends and my mum..

Btw, if you wanna take a glimpse of the story or if you wanna read it, just approach me..

Can Smile Without You..

I'm sleepy here, typing my Plant Tissue Culture assignment, listening to Can't Smile Without You by Barry Manilow in jazz version.. Suddenly, the lyrics gave me a new idea...
This is my modified version of the lyrics:....

You know I can smile without you
I can smile without you
I can laugh, and I can sing
I'm finding it hard to do everything
You see I feel sad when you're glad
I feel sad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can smile without you

You came along just like a song
And brightened my day
Who would have believed that you were part of a dream
Now it all seems light years away

And now you know I can smile without you
I can smile without you
I can laugh and I can sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when you're glad
I feel glad when you're sad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can smile

Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find
Well, I'm finding it hard leaving your love behind me

And you see I can smile without you
I can smile without you
I can laugh and I can sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel glad when you're sad
I feel sad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can smile without you

There.. Sounds better..

Moral of the story:
1) Americans please, next time do not pronounce can the same way as can't.. That way your lyrics wont sound the same anymore.

2) Rhyming songs with glad, sad is stupid and ridiculous..

Tuesdays..

Man.. I hate Tuesdays.. I really do.. Classes from 8am till 5 pm.. Then more discussions and assignments..

Got gun anyone? Shoot me now..

Love

It’s just an illusion,

an escape.

I don’t believe in true love,

Coz’ I know I will only end up getting hurt,

Disillusioned, again.

So, tell me.

People say fairy tales come true

White lies, stop it.

As for me,

I’m fed up,

I’m scared,

Tired..

For all I know,

The only true love that I know,

The only true love that flows

Is the love from my parents’ hearts.

You might think I sound pathetic but I am not a great believer of true love anymore.

The true love that I can feel right now is that of God’s love. The love that He gives me every time He forgives my wrongdoings. The love that He showers me that every time I am in trouble, He will guide me safely, opening ways through my heart.

The true love that I feel also, the love shining from my parents’ hearts. The anxiety that they portray every time as I walk out of the arrival lounge of the airport. The look that says it all. The look that says “We miss you, my daughter and we have been waiting for you to come home” The very look that makes you want to hug them.

I have always thought I would be happy with a man in my life. That Valentine’s day won’t be Valentine’s day without flowers. But I was wrong. Everyday is a valentine’s day if you love the particular person. For me, everyday is a valentine’s day because I celebrate my love for parents every single day.

Valentine’s Day 2009 had taught me a wondrous meaning of love. While people were out, celebrating, drinking wine and dining.

I was in my bed, high with fever for the seventh day. And on that day, I received a message, saying that my father had been bitten by a puffer fish.

I have always thought I love my mother more than my dad. But seems like I had been wrong all along.

I put my phone down, and automatically I cried, and prayed that my father will be okay. And at that time I realized how much I love him. And that I realized, that I love him as much as I love my mum.

I have thought of the scariest question in the world: What will I do if my parents die someday?

Honestly, I don’t know the answer. All I know is, I’d give trade in my extra years to them so that we’ll live together, and die together. And with that, death will be more peaceful.

With the remaining years in my parents’ life. I couldn’t help it but to fear. Fear that I will lose my love forever. I’m scared, lost..

Tell me, what should I do?

Love is scary…

romantism

I just learnt a lot of new things about Beethoven.

1. He studied under Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart. (Yeah~ whoot whoot!! I love Mozart!!)

2. He had a lot of love affairs but none of them was his true love -- except Therese Malfatti.

3. He had a lot of health problems and Therese Malfatti was the niece of Beethoven's doctor.

4. He fell deaf at 28 and was still able to compose songs.

5. Due to his deafness he was short-tempered.

6. When he asked Therese Malfatti for marriage, Therese's parents objected.

7. Beethoven was heart broken and composed "Fur Elise" and that song was said to be the most romantic song ever.

8. No one knows exactly who Elise is but some people say that Elise is the name that Beethoven gave to his only true love, Therese Malfatti.

More Than Words?

People usually say that actions speak louder than words. Well, I beg to disagree to some extent. Words, being as it is, is sometimes as strong and as powerful as actions.

Now I understand why Chen Sing Yi from the drama "Ming Zong Zhu Ding Wo Ai Ni" felt encouraged everytime after Ji Chuen Si told her two powerful words. (No- it's not I love you; I love you has three words) The two words are Jia Yu.

Everytime Chuen Si said those words to Sing Yi, she would feel more confident. At first, I thought it was ridiculous. How could, by saying only those two words a person will become more confident? Alas, I understand.

Thanks to a friend who wished me "Jia Yu" so that we would both achieve Dean's List and have our pictures taken together during the ceremony, that particular friend had actually encouraged me to work harder for this semester. So everytime I feel like giving up or that I feel lazy to study, I would think of my dear friend's "Jia Yu" and work hard. Thanks to you, my friend, my mid term results is better this time. I owe it to you..

Another example of how powerful words are is when I met with an unfateful incident this week. It was actually one friend (well, another friend) that gave me an advice and his powerful words are "Be happy. Everything is going to be fine". Those words keep me strong and they comfort me.

Words... If you say it at the wrong place at the wrong time, it might be DETRIMENTAL.. For example, if you secretly admire a person (and that person doesn't have any feelings towards you) and you accidentally blurted it out to him or her you might be doomed. Or you might get the girl or guy.. Well, it depends. But you're definitely doomed if you don't like a particular lecturer and had accidentally blurted out that you want to throw your shoe at him.



And yet, sometimes a simple word like "so?", "dunno", "no!" is strong enough to annoy oneself and a simple word such as "sorry" is powerful enough to solve almost everything. (well, almost)

And again, words are ones who can save a girl, a girl who is typing so early in the morning to pour her hearts out. I am very bad at managing my emotions this semester. So, I guess you will be seeing me a lot starting from this sem.. Tata..